| I can't believe this is coming to an end. I remember thinking this program was so long and it seemed like it would never ever end, I was literally counting the days till I get to go back to NY for God knows why. Everyone around me started telling me how much they're going to miss this program weeks before our departure date, but it never hit me the same way, not until now. I was always in denial, telling myself that i still have time. Yesterday was my last day of work and i finally thought to myself..."oh shit, this is really the end?" I took pictures with everyone, said goodbye to my coworkers, coordinators and managers. One of my managers kissed me on the cheek and so genuinely told me she loves me...I was so confused, I couldn't believe that I'm really leavin in a few days. People say Disney is the happiest place on earth. Before I got down here I've always questioned if such a place truly existed. First month I was here, I was miserable. I never tried to get close to anyone, never made an effort to remember their names, never cared enough to talk to a lot of them. I don't know how this all turned out the way it did, dunno how I got so attached to this place and the people down here. I realized that sometimes it takes zero effort to make a big difference in someone else's life...I couldn't understand why these people love me or will miss me..cause i didn't do anything to deserve this...i guess these feelins only comes so naturally. I've met the most incredible people in Florida, people from all over the world who share different cultures and stories. Never once in my life have I felt so happy, and i wasn't happy cause I was partying all the time or doing crazy things like i used to in NY, but the happiness comes from being so satisfied with just being here and being myself. Now that I only have 3 more days here, i gotta make the most out of my time. I have so many people i wanna see and hang out with before i leave..now i regret wasting all those time going back to NYC. It's gonna be so hard to say bye to each and everyone of them, cause regardless of how hard we try, we might not be able to see each other ever again for the rest of our lives. For the first time in my life, I felt so strong and yet so weak. I dunno how to go on without the friends I've made here. My unni..she has always been my mental support throughout this program. After a long day of work, I can come home and feel better by just being around her. She brings me back to the old me, making me feel like it's ok to think simple and that it's ok to do watever I want. Regardless of how stupid i can be at times, she's always there to support me, like a tue sister..Encouraging me to do what my heart tells me to do. Thanks for purifying my heart Unni...that's what i truly needed out of this experience. Then there's my little bro Tony who does watever i tell him to do, even getting on the bus for 3 hours just to mail something for me. Susu family AJ who would drive me to trade stupid pins at 7 in the freaking morning. Billy, who i trained with since day one. Chris who shares my ipod every night during our bus ride home. Michelle the crazy head who thinks she's the fattest girl in the world. my roommates who talks about goofy and pluto getting hit in the nuts at 3 in the morning...and then running around the pool drinking beer. Joanna gave me a pair of earrings and said I will miss you in chinese. Larissa the sweetheart who out of no where gave me a pin and said she thought of me when she saw it. Maria who 's always asking me to go to pleasure island, blue martini or house of blues. Alex and Katy who took me to Universal studios, and then going bak to the other side of the park just to win me a stuffed animal that i wanted. Every time Mickey shows up on the stage during the Fantasmic show, It makes me feel like everything is worth it regardless of how tired I was. There are too many of these moments that I will never forget. I will miss you all. I leave a piece of my heart everywhere I go, and one day I hope to come back here with all these awesome people, and feel this happiness once again. |
